I try not to let it get me down but some days are way harder than others. I’m a 20 year old guy so I get I have lots more time to meet someone but I’ve only really had one good relationship and I felt incredibly lucky to even be in it at all and it ended pretty bad for me and sometimes I start to really worry that I might not meet anybody cool that I’m actually attracted to. Or at the very least not for a really really long time and it sucks because no matter how much I love myself I am just ready for a good relationship but it feels so out of reach, between trying to manage every day life, to planning a future in a world becoming ever more ridiculous by the day, to then stumble into a person in the probably select group that I’d be interested in, have the confidence in me at that moment to talk to that person, have them be actually physically and mentally attractive to me and attracted to me at the same time and then to have to put in the constant effort to keep them interested it all seems impossible to manage.