21 male

I am a 21 year old male who is disabled and am in a wheelchair due to cancer. I have trouble dating, girls always say that it doesn’t bother them that I’m in a wheelchair. The thing is I don’t believe them. I don’t even think that my friends are actually my friends. They never text me first and I think they’re only giving me the time of day bc they feel like they have to. I would never tell them this bc I don’t wanna offend them. Idk what I’m even asking I’m just ranting. Well thanks for listening to my Ted talk