So I only ever really tried to have something with 2 girls, one in high school another in college both rejected me outright. For a long time, I thought it was my appearance that hindered me other times my personality, but overall I decided no not commit any more time into trying anything again since it ended with heavy rejection the both times.
Lately I also realized I had what could be called bad friends, they constantly bring me down, gloat about their girlfriends how many they ve had along the years and how I'm the only one who never had one. Maybe if i attempted to talk with every women i come across I might have had a girlfriend but I dont like to commit the time and then get rejected again. So I've finally stood up to those "friends" and left them, I've been trying to change everything, from a negative mentality to a more positive and confident mentality. Basically, I stopped caring what other people think or might think of me, I started working out every day and although I always thought I am ugly many people say it isn't true, but it's hard to tell how attractive you are in reality.
And although im changing my mentality, the way I behave and trying to look better, more lean, I still feel ashamed i wasted 23 years and never had any sort of relationship, its background noise but its still there. I am also not very good when trying to interact with women and that might be an instant turn off when i speak to them, due mainly to anxiety and nervousness.
Sorry, just wanted to vent a bit and this seemed the right place to do so 😀
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