31M. Still got the V card.

31M. Still got the V card. It just never happened. No woman has ever been interested.

I was bullied and teased growing up the the point that I have PTSD. I never recovered properly as during the time I never asked for help and teachers just let it slide when they saw it. I sat at home and practiced music alone.

Diagnosed with Aspergers so that just makes it worse. It's mostly under control, but it will pop up ever now and then. Quite frankly, no one has time for that at this age and I can't be completely rid of it.

I have lots of friends (guy and gals), go out a lot, sociable, and have no issues talking to people. Landed a higher paying job and career, love cars, mountain bike, and am a professional musician too so it's not like I have nothing interesting going on.

Physically I'm 5'5", a little overweight, balding, and acne. I figured I must be ugly and that's what holding me back. I dress fine and don't cheap out on it or grooming. I've been told I have a cute grin though.

Since I've never had any success, I've grown bitter. I'm working on it. I see a therapist very regularly. But how could you not if you have nothing but bad experiences? That's all I know. I have nothing to be positive about or show me any other evidence. I've tried apps but women are shallow and petty. They can find someone better a swipe away. The physical stuff turns people off.

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Even if they found out about it, they would wonder what is wrong with me and if no one has taken the time or done that with me, why would they? There must be something wrong with me and at this age they don't want to slow down, teach, be patient, or deal with it at all. So here I am. Is it hopeless? Will this truly turn everyone away? I feel like it's too late. I have some pretty great life experiences but its painful to keep going on when you know that you won't have anyone to share them with.