Am I normal for wanting to have sex only with people who I know like me?

Pretty much the title.

I’m a 26F who has only had 2 relationships (both long term) and both of those relationships are the only people I’ve slept with.

I pretty much went into the second relationship shortly after ending the first, so I didn’t have much time to have that phase as women like to have of just enjoying themselves.

I wish I could do that but the idea of loosely having sex with someone who doesn’t care much for me makes me feel uncomfortable.

I do have a personality disorder (BPD) which I do think contributes to me wanting to be accepted and liked purely for me and not just for sex.

My BPD aside, is it normal and acceptable for me to want to only sleep and date people who I see turning into a relationship? I do just sort of want to date to marry.

Thanks in advance, please be gentle in the comments! xx