Am I right to want to end my relationship?

I am currently dating this guy I met on Tinder. The past couple of months I dated him has been the best month of my life. He is the first guy I could call an actual “boyfriend“. We said, “I love you” to each other and he is the first guy I was physically intimate with even though we never did the actual deed….Just some kissing, holding hands, cuddling, and some petting.

He’s the sweetest guy ever and has done nothing but treat me with respect. However, I am starting to question if i am ready for a serious romantic relationship after all. You see, even though I am 24…….I still have the mind of a child. Due to complications with Turner Syndrome and traumatic brain injury, I have the common sense of a 10-year-old and social skills that rival that of L from Death Note. I am also currently unemployed, live in my grandparents‘ loft, and have no car. The only thing i have going for me is the fact that I am in the process of earning my masters to become a Special education teacher. Granted I am in the process of getting services to help me with all of the aforementioned problems so I can be independent in the future but still….maybe it would be better for me to have a committed relationship until I get those issues taken care of.

My mental health is also piss poor. I have anger management issues (even though he hasn’t seen me angry yet) and severe anxiety. I can’t tell you how many times I cried and wigged out because I thought he was ghosting me after not responding to my messages for a couple of hours. Granted, I did this in secret and never told him about it but still……this was a selfish and irrational mentality because I knew he was working. I also tend to overthink things way too freakin’ much. For example, I told him that I would miss him during his deployment and he said, ”I know.” and this led me to question if he really would miss me. However, I knew this was probably overreacting because he told me himself that he is not the best in expressing himself with words. Granted, none of these anxieties have caused me to lash out at him (hell, I never even vocalized them to him) but I do know that if I don’t confront them, they can cause problems down the road. These are not inner demons that I can’t face if I am relying on somebody for my own happiness.

Buuuuuuut…..I am not sure if I will be making a mistake by letting him go. I know I am going to miss spending time with him and his kiss. After all, I am not sure how long it will take for me to possibly find another boyfriend. I mean, it took me 24 years to find one and what if it takes me another 24 years to find another one? And plus, I don’t want to break the heart of someone I care for?