I know I’m not ready for a relationship and I don’t like the idea of high school Relationships. You know where you’re obligated to walk you partner to their class, to go to prom, and your partner wanting to bring you into situations with a lot of people. Also I don’t like the idea that a relationship will only last a few months, I know that’s still possible as an adult but at least as an adult you have a much better chance at long term serious relationships.

Im working on self improvement because I have problems with Depression and stuff. I’ve finally gotten to the point where I’m not Miserable most of the day but my mental state is still likely as fragile as a glass vase.

Now I’ve said that I know I’m not ready for a relationship, but I can’t stop wanting one. I do want someone to love, hug, kiss, and cuddle with. I still want that relationship, but I know it’s best for me to wait. I don’t even know any girls who would want to be in a relationship.

I’m at a divide, the intellectual side of my mind is telling me that’s it’s going to be best for me to wait and work on myself, while the Hormonal side of my brain is telling me to try things with out thinking.