I’m not sure why but I don’t get why I’m always feeling miserable. Everything that I do, I just feel inferior and I keep selling myself short. I feel constantly like no girl will like me, especially when there is a better guy out there compared to me.

I keep trying to learn new things to make myself feel special and different. But I end up feeling defeated. Maybe by tackling many new things at once, I can only be good at them to a certain point. Whereas if one focuses specifically on one thing, they can become a master at it more quickly. I get a little too ambitious and strive for more

I workout a lot and I have been trying to focus on my nutrition too. I should be proud of my progress and keep continuing without self deprecating myself. But all I do is compare myself to how other guys look and keep wishing that I was better looking even though people would give me compliments

I understand that the way I am is not attractive to women. But I wanted to be honest and get my insecurity off my chest. I know that there is not much anyone can do to help me. I used to get angry when people kept telling me: “Just be confident. There’s no point in comparing yourself to others. You are you. No one can help you. It starts with you……” And a bunch of other stuff too. I felt like no one was understanding me and honestly, I just wanted someone to listen to me. I mean I know it’s up to me to solve it but I guess I’m trying to look for someone that will just listen and be there for me as I vent. Instead of trying to solve it for me. Because those answers just seemed like they were telling me to go away and do it on your own. I know that’s not exactly the case, but it does feel that way. I guess since I don’t have much friends, it kind of hurts 🙁

Anyway, thanks for reading. Atleast you took the time to read all that, and that means something to me 🙂