what do I do about this? Im 23 years old and I’ve been on several dates some from tinder and some from real life. But I keep chickening out on hooking up with the girls I meet even if I have a great connection with them and they are interested in meeting again. I basically try to steer clear of any sexual talk and just try to have a purely emotional relationship with her but it seems that’s just not working. After the second or third date they just seem to get bored with me and ghost me because i guess they just decide I must be too boring. Im kinda a germiphobe so Im not too keen on such close contact, and i just can’t help it, that’s how I am. I grew up in such a sexually repressed household with my religious parents never mentioning it or even allowing me to see a movie with kissing in it. They sheltered and censored everything! I didn’t even know about it until like high school when some kid showed porn to me on his laptop but i refuse to watch porn because it’s perverted and it’s designed to make people anti social. On top of that i am pretty low self esteem. I don’t think i would ever be comfortable being naked in front of someone let alone a girl. I guess somethings wrong with me, everyone else seems to desire it but honestly it just makes me very nervous even thinking about it. What do I do? I still want to be in a relationship. I still want to have kids and a family one day but i cant at this rate. I never learned what everyone else did in high school and college. I probably wouldn’t be good at it and would humiliate myself because most girls expect guys to take charge and be dominant which im not, im more of a gentle person. Why is it so important to people? Why does it matter that much? Why is it so mandatory if i want to be in a relationship? I also don’t trust people easily and honestly i wouldn’t be able to sleep at night because of paranoia that she’ll go cry rape against me. Im just not cut out for such activities. I guess I’m not really a man and i don’t have what it takes to be a man and i have accepted that. I have a great sense of humor and girls seem to like that but when it comes to kissing or sex in too afraid to do that. How do you initiate something like that? How do you know if she even likes you that way? I never learned any of these things. It sucks but idk what I’m gonna do. I’ll be in this cycle forever. Going on dates and boring her out and repeating the cycle.