I recently graduated from university and I had 2 relationships. All were short term though, lasted between 1-3 months on the average. I actually have it all. I have a normal life, to be honest, nothing extreme. I don’t excel on anything but life gives me the best experiences.

I think the reason why I don’t put an effort to get into a relationship is because I am satisfied with my life. I have a happy and normal relationship with my parents and siblings. I have 2-5 best friends who I can reach any day and 15-20 closest people who can show up on my birthday. I get all the emotional support from my family and friends. And when I mean emotional support, they are really there for me through ups and downs.

It seems that I have stopped longing and finding validation from others because I am comfortable of getting that support already.

There are some times that I long for affection from a certain nobody that could give me love. But when someone makes a move on me, it also freaks me out. I would still love to held and be said all these beautiful things. I would love to go on dates and have someone by my side… But I’m way too contented with my life right now. I have friends who I can talk about anything and I can tag along anywhere.

I like the peace of being alone but it also frightens that I will never feel that love again. Love that makes you extremely happy and sad and love that makes you a little bit of human.

Is this normal? Am I being weird?