It’s always cringey and chaotic to watch unfold but it’s so much fun. But, it always gets me hurt, because they always prefer the other girl. I don’t play too much on what I know of them, I get to know them and see if there are disparities between what they tell me and what they tell catfish me. For example men have lied to me and catfish me about their age. Theyll give different work details or eduation backgrounds.

It hurts when they’re replying to me every now and then, after confessing feelings for me or after we have been dating or talking for a while, but then replying to the catfish me as I type. I’ve always been so cynical of men but this just takes it to new levels. A guy I was talking to who made me feel so special treated catfish me like a piece of meat and was pining after her, in a way he has never done with me solely because we hadnt brought it up. he wants to date me but he was talking about having a lot of sex with her. sometimes i think well he probably wanted to have a long term thing with me and a short term with me but because i usually only speak to one guy at a time it hurts.

I always delete the accounts after a convo or two max, and I’ll notice a mood change when I actually speak to the guy myself, it’s like he misses catfish me, and he only comes back to speaking to the real me once she’s gone again. But then it’s so hard because well… these guys do not know it’s me. So I sit there with an altered view on them that they have no idea about.

EDIT: I am posting this for advice, not just to rant. I’m not defending what I do and I’ve been hitting myself (in the face) over this, it feels so dumb but I can’t stop doing it. I am so ashamed but I keep doing it.