I’m going to be transparent and state that I have shitty luck with relationships. I’m not going to sit here and say that I’m worthless, woe is me, women don’t like me (fuck incels, by the way) but I’m also not going to act like I’m hot shit. I just feel disadvantaged in the department of connecting with someone on a romantic level (especially as I’m a hopeless romantic living in a world of hook-up culture). I have six of what I’d call failed girlfriends. Three of them actually were my girlfriend at some point but none of those relationships lasted longer than six months (one of them even told me that I have no chemistry). The other three were love interests that I went pretty far out of my way for only to be outclassed by a bigger fish in the sea (if that makes sense). I have been using Hinge and FB dating and have had matches here and there but no one I’m really hitting it off with. And especially now that we’re all isolated in quarantine, while dreaming of a happier day and age I can’t help but wonder if there’s a special someone out there for me and I think to myself that if there is then I’d love to meet her one day because she must be special.

I think it’s easy for a guy in my position to fall into that “forever alone” echo chamber. But as bad as my luck may be, I have noticed that it has varied with each love interest. I wonder if there’s something I can do to fix my social skills and maybe turn my luck around when this lockdown is over. I’ve considered confiding in my friends but I don’t want to trouble them with this. I wonder if there are any sources or programs online that I can follow to become better with relationships.

I remember when I was younger I participated in cotillions which were fun and even practiced couple dancing for a while which were fun and helped me connect with women better and build chemistry. But obviously, we’re not doing anything like that for a while thanks to coronavirus. So I’m wondering if there’s anyway in isolation that I can learn to be a more attractive guy or just better at flirting/connecting romantically with love interests.