Starting to lose confidence so hard, long story short. Asked out a girl via facebook (ik, but it was the only option to reach her). She said yes and I had a good feeling in my stomach. However on date day I was pretty stressed and didnt get enough time to get myself ready, not that we guys have much to fix but anyhow. Date started nervous for me, felt that I didnt was in control, hated it, but after a while it was much smoother and I finally felt some dynamic until she said she was tired and thought it was time to say goodbye. We had been hanging out for like 5-6 hours, went to an art gallery.

But I kinda panicked because of this, because to me, that was her telling me she didnt feel attraction. So the goodbye was a kinda awkward and I blamed myself so much for being a loser. Then I came home tried to gather myself and tried to be logical “maybe she was tired”. The girl goes to medschool and I know she have much to study, so I asked her the day after if she had time next week and she said she didnt but she would see the week after that and I replied something in the lines of “sure thing, message me when you’re free”. She answered “Yes we keep in touch :)” and that was the last thing I heard from her which was 1 month ago.

I just can’t move on from this, I already had 0 confidence, especially in the looks department and I have been going to the psychologist because of BDD, even though I have had people insisting I’m fine and this girl I went to date with is extremely good looking, so I thought that maybe all was inside my head but this rejection sort of confirmed it for me that I’m actually trash. I write this here because I’ve literally no one to talk about it either, so I understand that this post might come off as cringeworthy but really any advice would be more than welcome.