Hey guys, so I read few threads here, so decided to share few stuff that happened in my life recently.

So I’m in my pre-final year of bachelors, I was close with my ex ( she broke up with me in first year of college, long distance probably ). For the next one year I tried to patch things up with her, because I thought being in same city for more than an year and then trying long distance would have been quite difficult. Nothing worked out tho, but we used to talk because we were close to each other and figured talking to each other wouldn’t cause any harm.

I became comfortable with this ( talking as friends, at this point she also made it quite clear that she wanted to be friends only )

At start of pre-final year, I felt attracted to this girl in my class. We started talking and eventually we both confessed. I told this to my ex, that I like this person and would eventually ask her out.

My ex started acting weirdly then, first she stopped talking then she told me that things between us were going so good and she was thinking of starting things again after college.

At this point, I was very confused because before me telling her about that new girl she never said anything like this.

I told her that “I would be dating this new person now and that she is not that comfortable with me talking to you ” She didn’t take it well, after some rant from her she blocked me from every possible place.

In the next 2 months( dating this new girl), I was some times thinking about my ex but I thought these thoughts must be because I was talking to her regularly for past 4 years.

In these 2 months, I used to fight a lot with this girl on very small things. We weren’t just compatible I suppose. And I still used to think about my ex, so I figured that I never moved on and rushed into this relationship. We broke up.

I tried to reach out to my ex through every mean possible, texting her bfs, sending her a mail, even making a video message of wishing her happy birthday by playing it on guitar( which I planned to do so started learning it just 3 weeks before that) and sending it through my friends or brothers phone. All of this just to have one phone call with her to tell her how stupid I was to let her go.

2 days after sending her the video, we had a conversation on chat. I tried to convince her that things I did were foolish, I didn’t understand my feelings then and rushed into stuff. I just want one chance.

She told me that she is happy right now without me in her life, and wanted it to remain that way. I realised, I gave it all and if this is her decision then I should move on too.

It has been 2 weeks since then, I do think about her sometimes. But I think I tried my best.

TOO LONG I SUPPOSE, JUST WANTED TO TELL THIS OUT LOUD.