I 21M and her 21F have been talking for just over 3 months and met a few times in person so far. Never in my life have I ever felt this way about someone before my feelings are indescribable the emotional bond weve built is like no other I feel like she is truely another half of me that I never even knew existed. We’ve made out and fooled around but never had sex after all this time yet the bond just seems to get stronger and stronger each day and makes me feel that this is the real deal it’s not lust this is a true emotional, spiritual conection. We’ve talked about sex and it seems well both be very compatible when it finally comes to that. We have the same interests she is so alike to me its incredible and such a kind, caring and empathetic woman I never imagined I could meet someone as awesome as she is. We can one on one emotionally together about even the toughest topics our bond is incredible and continues to grow, we are slowly becoming eachothers best friends.

The problem is she is Muslim and I’m just some white dude from Toronto. My family is liberal and accepting; Her family would never accept me. She isnt allowed to date or talk to men, especially not a non muslim. She has a early curfew and cannot leave her home without her parents specifically knowing her plans. Basically to see eachother requires her sneaking around to meet me like some shit straight outta Romeo and Juliet. This is far from an ideal situation for me as I cant properly be with her yet I put up with it cause my feelings are so incredibly strong. I wouldent say I’m in love yet but like its basically what I feel and I know she feels the same. But the fact that we have to hide the relationship and meet in secrecy puts a huge strain on me. That coupled with the fact shes expected to be married to a muslim man before 25 makes the relationship feel like a ticking time bomb that I’m bound to lose. She doesnt want to marry a man she doesnt love either and is depressed from this situation as well. All I can think about Is buying a house in the next year or two and having her run away with me to be and live together but I feel that’s incredibly wishful thinking. It’s not garunteed she would follow and her family would shun her if she did.

All I want to do is be with her and she just as much if not more. I’d do anything to make this work and I know she would too. The fact our love is forbidden is driving me crazy I’m thinking all types of dumb shit like converting or using my family who is very wealthy to bribe her father. Like seriously my brains gone wack on me and I cant handle it. I feel like the odds are against us and we should just let it go and put the relationship into the bin of the biggest “what ifs” of my life. But to stop now would break a piece of my heart that I dont want to give up and I want to fight but I’m afraid itll all be in vain.

I’m lost and dont know what to do from here