I’ve been worried about my friends during the lockdown and now also during the protests, mentally wise. Personally for me, it’s doing a ton on my mental health. So this girl I’m talking to, I was worried about her too, because she lives in the US, she’s a soldier, and she’s a woman of color. So I asked her how she was doing given the circumstances, if she was okay, and she didn’t answer me for 3 days (ot often takes long because she says she’s in camp right now for a few months) and I gave her a whole wordvomit about how I was worried about everyone and so also wanted to check in on her etc etc. But all she sent back was a ‘hey how are you, love’ with a sad emoji. It feels as if she cares about me, she often asks how I am amongst other stuff and tried cheering me up when I was stressed. But it’s as if she refuses to talk about anything feelings related shen it comes to her, and just her.

Edit: I also added that she didn’t HAVE to talk about it because I know different people need different things, but that since for me I know it helps to just rant away, I wanted her to know she could. If she wanted to.