So yeah today marks 25 years of my life where i feel like i have not really had much romantic/ dating experience compared to everyone. My friends/ people around me are having babies or getting married… not that i want either or those yet, i can’t help but feel like that won’t be me considering i’ve not had a boyfriend or sex yet. I tried to put myself out there then the whole current situation started, so i decided to delete dating apps tbh, wasn’t having much luck as men on there always addressed my race in a sexual fetishy (if that’s even a word) way.

I feel like i can’t relate to a lot of things and maybe it’s just down to me, like idk what i’m doing wrong but this has really affected my confidence and i feel sort of like everything/life is pointless. Some guys at work have said they fancied me to others but then again I always hear them at work speaking sexually about another girl at work to the other men…..i just don’t find this attractive.

So i’m very open for advice, i mean i have nothing to lose but the obvious, i just feel so inadequate. Not saying this year will be my year but 2020 seems to be bringing a lot this year 😅