I know. People are going to say, you have to put your shit together before thinking to date someone or to commit to. I agree. I start to think that the fact I come from low social economical status, that I am still studying even I am in my mid twenties and that I haven’t still accomplished stuff, makes the difference. Guys also want a nice, good looking woman, who knows how to look good. I am not good looking enough.

I understand that these things count but at the same time I feel very sad and bitter. I feel so stupid because I am kinda looking for affection, and some understanding and for acceptance. Maybe it’s also my curiosity, because I never had someone so it is that, that is speaking but I feel sad, I guess. Love yourself first. Fine, I have been doing that for 25 years.

Ranting post.