Blegh

Nearly 32M, never married, no kidz, haven’t had a girlfriend in 10 years. As many “dates” as I can count on one hand since then. Not much for hookups either. Prefer to find a match I can do fun/normal stuff with frequently if we are going to do The Sex also. I don’t go to bars, clubs, casinos, anything of the sort. Work is the only place I feel like I’m ever needed by anyone, and it’s to bust my ass for them. Hope is peaceful but lonely. I’ve got hobbies, cycling, hiking,music, art, PLENTY of good creativity outlet and things to do with fresh air. In fact, I cruise the trails here looking for 4 leaf clovers and other wild edibles and little gaps to jump while I’m out and always see a couple cuties here and there but the energy is always telling me to keep riding and don’t make contact. Idk what I’m doing wrong, but I feel really disliked. Like I will never be someone whom someone I’m attracted to wants to be with. It’s empty feeling. It hurts. My brain keeps telling me I’m fine or okay, but why would I be feeling these depressing singleman things if I were truly okay? I see a lot of other folks just happy as clams together. Don’t get me wrong I love being alive and doing stuff, but this really puts a damper on things.