F22 / Too ugly to be liked back and it’s killing me

I started dating a guy same age almost a year ago. First time I've ever dated. We get along great as friends, and because he didn't feel a spark we became just that – only friends. I told him to be brutally honest why he couldn't like me, which took a year, he said he was not physically attracted to me, but really likes me as a person. He rated me a 5 out of 10… Many people call themselves ugly because of media standards and they are usually wrong, but I literally am ugly. I'm physically repulsive and rate myself 1 or 2 out of 10. (Highest I got on rate me was a 2!) I've never been called pretty ever in my life. I've tried multiple dating apps for years and literally got one message in all this time (from the guy I'm taking about). I've tried different hairstyles, makeup, different angles. Nothing. I fell for him and can't stop crying. No one can ever love my because of my looks. I cannot afford a surgeon. Any advice…? Edit: no I am not fat, I am slightly underweight