GF taught me so much in our relationship. Now she broke up with me, I feel bad she can’t see how she’s made me better

My GF broke up with me yesterday after nearly 1.5 years together. She left me because she couldn’t do what she wanted to do for herself and achieve her goals, as she always felt the pressure of our relationship and always had to worry about me and keep me happy.

She’s a very ambitious girl and has always been hard working since she was young. I’ve been the opposite – laid back and not so motivated.

Since I’ve been with her she has really motivated me to do better in life and I have been doing that.

Now she’s broken up with me, I feel extremely sad and depressed. I feel she didn’t love me as much as I did. It seems like it’s so easy for her to move on right now, whereas me I’m hurt and been depressed all day.

I’ve used my first day after breakup to reflect on why I feel bad, and have listed them below:

• The happy memories we created together (really sad to look back on)
• Being so close to each other all the time
• Knowing everything about each other everyday
• Texting each other every single day since we first met
• Looking back at pictures and videos of her, realising how pretty she is and how I HAD her and now I don’t
• Missing her company

This one is really getting to me right now:

• As she has been so ambitious and motivated. She’s managed to teach me to be similar. She’s always up early 6:30/7am. I’m usually up 10am/11am. She goes out for her 10,000 steps a day, eats healthy, and just works hard. Everyday she used to ask me “have I eaten breakfast yet”, “have you done your steps yet”. Always motivated me to wake up earlier so I didn’t feel left behind.

In short, she’s taught me so much in life, to work hard, never give up and chase your dreams. Always have a goal and have ambition.

I’ve never really had a goal or dream for myself. Because of her, I do now and this is where I feel really down as it’s a shame I can’t share this with her in the future and she isn’t here to see how I’ve improved as a person over the course of our relationship as she’s the one that taught me to be like this.

How can I stop missing all this especially that last one which is really getting to me right now?