We have been dating over a year now. We are exclusive but haven't said I love you to each other.
I have been a little depressed because i graduated recently and my job search due to the covid and also being an international student has been tough. I have been having panick attacks and have been crying often for small reasons. I have been abused in the past and I think this is one of the major reasons of what I have been from the past few months.
One night at my bf's place I got very drunk and I started crying. I said I love him and he said he loves me too. I also remember saying that I wanted to die and I was abused when I was in school. I never told this to anyone. I don't know if he understood what I said but I remember him saying it's ok and trying to calm me down from crying.
He never asked about it again or we never talked about saying I love you. I have been trying to talk to him saying things like I have been crying a lot these days which is not myself. All I want is somebody to be there for me and listen to me as I never talked about being abused before with anyone.
What should I do? Am I overthinking this ?
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