How to ask for forgiveness after watching porn?

TITLE UPDATE/EDIT: How to ask for forgiveness after lying about watching porn?

I (20M) am in a long distance with 20F. I admitted to my gf I have an issue with masturbation. Recently it got really bad to the point I watched porn and giving myself excuses to watch it. I admitted to her what I had done, it did not turn out so well. She is giving me another shot, but it’s been hard so far.

I never once thought that watching it is considered cheating, but I definitely agree with that POV now.

I want to regain her trust and allow her to be safe with me again. I need genuine suggestions for how I can accomplish this.

She is mainly upset because she asked if I watched porn and I lied. I did try to stop multiple times and when she would ask, I would stop, but it would only last so long. I really thought I could stop and not have to bring it up. Until it got super bad, I had to tell her and how it was affecting my life with everyone around me. (Depression, feeling lonely, not having many friends)

I have felt the guilt, but I am past that and am focusing on the future. I get why she feels how she does. I want to show her changed behavior. I am going to abstain from masturbation. I want her to know I won’t hurt her ever again.

Please drop any suggestions.

I really appreciate you reading this

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