I can’t stop thinking about her and what went wrong. I want to try and fix it but I also don’t want her to know that she’s all I can think about.

So I saw her on Sunday night this week and after about an hour she sent me home saying she was really tired. So I dropped her off at home and she seemed like she didn’t know what to do and kind of desperately asked for a kiss and I did kiss her. For the rest of the week I’ve been making plans with her only for her to cancel on me. She says she is having a lot of family drama and has a lot on her plate from school, work, and now she has to find a place for her sisters to live over the summer.

She kept saying she wanted to hang out. Often it was her idea to hang out, but she would end up canceling. This last time on Thursday it was my idea to hang out because I knew I wouldn’t have much free time for a while and I wanted to see her. She said yes and decided we should meet at her place at 8 but then around 8 just left me on read. So I asked if I could head over and she sent a long text about how she doesnt feel like she could.

I told her I didn’t understand and asked if she would call me and she didn’t open it for about 2 hours and when she did she didn’t respond. I texted her again saying “I didn’t want to be mad about it but the way things went down to tonight was pretty shitty and I think I deserve more respect than that”

Before I finished typing she said “I’m sorry i drink to cope with stress and that’s what I’m doing” and then when she responded she said “yes you do and I’m sorry I’m such a dick. Can I call you tomorrow.”

I agreed to the phone call but I waited the next day and texted her telling her I was busy that night and asked if she could call before 7:30 and she never answered. We haven’t spoken since and it’s been about a day.

I want to send an apology because I feel like we both were in the wrong that night. I shouldn’t have added more stress to her night when I knew she was already overwhelmed.

Should I say something along the lines of “ Hey, I was thinking about way we left things off the other day and I wanted to apologize. While I still don’t think the way you’ve been handling our plans was right or fair to me, you did tell me you had a lot on your plate you definitely don’t owe me anything. I shouldn’t have kept pushing it and added more stress into your life and I’m not proud of that. I just felt like I should say that, no hard feeling from me. If things slow down for you sometime in the future maybe we could try this again”

Should I? Or should I change it a little bit?

TL;DR: she blew me off and is now basically ghosting me and I want to send an apology just to clear my side of it and get everything of my chest because I feel a bit guilty