I feel like I’m not good enough

So I’ve dated five people and I’ll admit I’m a little clingy. But I’m not like high maintenance I’m just a normal ass person I’m like a normal looking girl all I ask is that you don’t cheat on me and that you support me when I need you and obviously don’t ignore me all day unless you have a family emergency. Well the guys I usually date kind of abuse me a little bit like three out of five guys have and they always ignore me whether it’s like them punishing me for whatever reason it’s usually because I’m being too much of an attention whore or whatever but you know they ignore me. So you know I break up with them usually its me breaking up with them And I always notice they go after these girls that are kind of like not ugly or anything they just are usually overweight and don’t have very good hygiene so they always go straight to those girls. And you know like I have my problems with depression and stuff but these girls also like have more problems than me typically but I noticed the guy is usually giving them the attention that I wanted when I was dating the guy and it happens with every relationship I’m in. Like I’ll date a guy then it immediately after we break up he’ll be talking to some girl and giving her The attention that I wanted in the relationship even though she’s kind of a downgrade not to be rude or anything. So I started wondering like what is wrong with me like what’s wrong with me like am I doing something wrong. It’s not that I still wanna be with the guy it’s just why are you taking this girl out on dates when you would make up bullshit excuses not to take me out on dates like what’s so special about her when she’s not as pretty not to be rude again and she’s usually way more abusive and meaner and has more issues. Usually when I ask about this the guy gives me some bullshit excuse like I’m way too out of their league to the point where it made them have so much anxiety that it just burnt them out and they didn’t want to hang out with me basically I’m intimidating, they say that they fucked me over and they want to treat the next girl better but I know that’s bullshit. So I started talking to my guy friend about it and he said it’s probably because they didn’t wanna hang out with me because I kind a have you know my own issues like way more than most people do like I have issues with depression I like anxiety and trust issues but then I was like OK but they’re going for girls that are literally in and out of mental institutions that have had way more issues than I do. So like I’m just sitting here wondering am I ugly am I like like what’s wrong with me why did they have problems hanging out with me and taking me on dates but not an issue with these new girls. So then my friend was like well you just have a shitty taste in guys so you know I’ve been trying to go after more confident more put together guys lately but they just wanna fuck me they don’t want an actual relationship so I can’t even go for guys that are problematic I’m like stuck with guys that have home life issues and that are obviously going to abuse me because those are the only guys that accept me and I just don’t know what’s wrong with me. By the way I am 17 if you’re wondering. And I’ve been crying over this for like an hour because I get jealous obviously but it’s not because I want to be with that guy it’s like why is he taking her on dates why is he telling her she’s pretty and stuff when he never did that to me.