I had my first time with a sex worker and feel horrible.

I'm 21 and even though I have a lot going for me I have a small penis, I'm only 4 and a half inches long and its very depressing. I have heard girls my age talk about size and from what I have heard my size is very bad.

I haven't tried to date because I'm embarrassed about my size and know that I'll probably be laughed at. Its just hard seeing all my friends get into relationships and not have to worry because they're big.

I also have another huge hurdle in that I'm a virgin still, I know most girls don't like male virgins and I have no experience so I can't lie.

I just said fuck it after being alone one night, I decided to pay for my first time and the entire experience made me feel horrible. The girl I was with tried to make me comfortable and make it a good experience but I couldn't get into it.

I felt really pathetic and I cried when she left because I hate that I was born like this. But I think this will probably be the only way I'll ever experience some form of intimacy.