I need help with dating. I’ve never been in a relationship before and the loneliness has been killing me for a some time now…

I am a 20 year old guy soon to be 21 in a couple of months. I have never had a girlfriend, neither have I been on a date in my entire life. I haven’t even had my first kiss. The whole dating world is completely out of my comfort zone. I have watched my all friends effortlessly find themselves in loving relationships and to be honest this has made me quite envious of them. Since junior year of high school I have wanted nothing but to have a relationship, and as 4 years has passed since then I am still finding myself in the same position I was in before, dateless, kissless, a virgin, and worst of all extremely lonely. This loneliness is really breaking me down and has only grown worse while in quarantine. In fact I find myself unable to sleep some nights because I end up mourning the fact of how lonely I feel not having had the experience of a relationship and that I may never experience having a romantic partner and die the dateless kissless virgin that I currently am.

I have gotten to the point that seeing couples in public just makes me so angry. Like why are they able to have relationship but I am stuck on the sidelines watching them experience all the things I can’t. Truly I just want to have the opportunity to hold someone special in my arms and cuddle.

I know that a lot of this may seem a little rant-like and I apologize for that. Honestly I need help to navigate the dating world because I just can’t sit here and watch everyone else experience this amazing part of life while I’m just stuck wondering what kissing someone feels like. It is driving me insane and killing my health.

Please help I really need your advice everyone.