Our relationship began in high school when I had a crush on her and started messaging her. She initially was really a heartbreaker to me. She’d leave me to go out with her friends (which includes other boys), I’d ask her out and she’d go out but instead meet up with other friends, she didn’t plan anything for my 17th birthday when I planned alot for hers, and just things that irritates me. But i loved her, I took care of her when she was sick and on her period, I made sure she never sat alone in class and stuff. She rarely does the same to me but I didn’t mind. The biggest part of why I stayed was because she changed one thing about herself, she stopped talking and interacting with other boys because I am a really really jealous individual. And I don’t think any other girl would be able to change that side of them. Our relationship wasn’t smooth, it was filled with minor arguments here and there which would lead to “breakups” but we’d apologize after a day of not talking and such. In quarantine however, we weren’t able to see each other as much and that lead to me being bored and I resorted to online gambling. I ended up losing some $500 and telling her about it, she told me to stop and what not ofc. A week goes by, she brought up the conversation of a breakup, saying we might breakup tonight. I responded by saying well then might as well do it now then carry this relationship when you’re positive we won’t last. She did, she broke up with me. A week later I realized that this time it’s a serious breakup. And I begged her to stay, told her that she can do whatever she pleases as long as she doesn’t leave and stuff. I’m a simp, I know, I’m young so bear with me. She ended up not wanting to get back and is now seen to be alot happier, posting more stories, talking to other people alot more, active in class chats and what not. On the other hand I’ve since stopped talking to her after she told me to leave her alone, still in a down mood especially coupled with the fact that I used gambling as a getaway to cover up my breakup, I ended up losing a good $2000 more. At this point Idk what to do. My university choice was actually made because of her, I didn’t want to do long distance so I just followed her university choice. Now I’m stuck going to a city I didn’t even know exist in the first place. My life just revolved around making sure our relationship last. One addiction made me neglect her for a week or two and she left. It hurts but I still love her for some reason despite all the rude and disrespectful replies she sent me after we broke up. It’s hard for me to realize how a girl who used to say ILYs and talk about marriage and shit all of a sudden ignores me and seems to be so happy without me. Who’s at fault here? Was I too insecure too jealous? What should I do now?
TLDR, my gf of 2 years broke up with me and i can’t imagine how a person who used to love another can just ignore and forget about their past so quickly and move on
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