I seriously think I’m going to die alone

Sorry for the vent post. 28M here and I suffer from a small case of social anxiety. Mainly being in a large crowd (bars,clubs,etc) is what triggers it. So meeting people isn’t the easiest thing. I have a lot in life and shouldn’t be upset about the way things are, but no matter what I do, I can never seem to get to a first date or even a few days of talking without getting ghosted.

I legit have zero expectations anymore. Started talking to this girl yesterday, super cute and have a lot in common and then this evening I sent her a few messages and then noticed I had been deleted (we were using an app when I can tell when I’ve been removed…the add friend really gave it away). No explanation, just straight ghosted.

Things seemed to be going well and we were trading long messages. I didn’t think I was being super forward at all. Just not too sure what to do from here. Dating apps haven’t really produced for me (met my ex who mentally abused me on a dating app and then the last girl literally just wanted sex. Which is nice, but not what I’m ultimately after).

I’m about one more bad experience from dropping it entirely and either just living out life alone (which is the main source of my depression currently. Happy for the most part otherwise).

Thank you for listening and sorry for venting. This just had me to the point where I think it’s time to give up the ghost and accept the hand the world has dealt me.