I would kill to be physically attractive

If I was like a 8 to 10 out of 10 my dating life would be so much easier. Before covid-19 happened I was going to the gym 6 days a week for like a month. I was well on my way to improving my physical appearance. Now that gym are off limits to me because I do not want to be hooked up for a ventilator I’m fucked. I now have to starve myself in order to become thin and even that’s not good enough. I need to put on muscle. I can’t do that if I can’t lift.

I’m tired of being the chubby guy who gets shot down all the time or who gets no matches on dating apps. I’m 30. If my prime has not passed me by it’s getting pretty close. I have to find a way to become better looking. I’m not going to be middle aged and still getting rejected.