We have a really fun friendship and ever since quarantine we‘ve been texting daily and vibing very much over skype. We‘re both just hella excited about talking to each other and making an effort with memes and jokes.
We‘ve got chemistry and we‘re both not straight but we couldn’t be together for various reasons. (1. 21 feels like it’s a lifetime away from 25 i don’t want to take advantage of her or appear predatory 2. she’s gorgeous and i‘m.. funny and charming but not hot 3. half a year ago i had to break up with my cheating fiancé and i don’t think i want to be anywhere near a serious relationship yet. Sex on the other hand i would really like to have but can not with her (see 1.) 4. i don’t want our friendship to become awkward or strained if anything goes wrong.)
Though my problem is that i keep dreaming about kissing and holding her. Sappho give me strength. When i wake up i‘m all… happy. You know, like a crush but i know that we won’t ever be together so idk what’s going on in my dumb brain. After those dreams i try to take a minute and envision all the ways this could go wrong. That helps to cool it down but the next night there will be another tender cuddling/kissing dream. It seems to get worse with time and the dreams started about two weeks ago.
Do you have advice on how to get control over those feelings without pushing her away? The friendship is really good for us and making us happy but I want to not wake up half in love every day when there’s no chance. There’s only horrible endings if we turn romantic I’m convinced. So how do i control my dreams? I know that’s a genuinely tough question and i already feel like a moron for asking but i wouldn’t ask if the situation wasn’t getting dire.
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