I’m pretty Apathetic and just don’t know what to do..

As the title mentions I’m apathetic, I’ve never had a crush and recently I’ve been getting scared of the thought that I’ll just never find the one, I’ve matched and talked with one person on Tinder, and I’ve noticed that I have no idea how to be romantic, since I don’t really feel love, I can say something but there will be really no feeling in it. I can’t feel love and it scares me. I want to feel it and want somebody to call my own. But I can’t. I don’t know what to do. Also, I had low self esteem and have ONLY talked to guys for the most part, as I’ve talked to this girl in FaceTime I’ve noticed just how different men and women speak. I feel I have to be more gentle and not so rough. Don’t know what else to say, thanks for coming to my TedTalk.