Looking back my dating experience has been…unsatisfying. To say the least. I'm an attractive girl that has been approached by modeling scouts on festivals so this has nothing to do with looks but rather with then just not feeling me.
How my relationships usually happened was that I was approached, I got a little crush on them and got with them but then it turned out I didn't even have a crush on them but it was just my anxiety ramping up so it felt like love when it wasn't. Needless to say my relationships were short lived and I don't see this changing unless I'm the one who gets to pick and approach. Unfortunately though every time I try to do it myself I fail, and this has gotten so bad that I have started obsessively stalking guys I'm interested in to find out information so I can make plans on how to approach him and all that. Those plans are very elaborate, but they don't do it either.
I'm at my wits end and feel like I'm going crazy, especially because I'm not even shooting for the stars with my picks, these guys are either in my league or way under and a lot of times my friends even wonder why the hell I would be attracted to them because some are both unattractive and have a shitty personality.
I just don't understand it, love is so complicated, sex is easy. And I want a relationship not a one night stand.
I'm a girl with my own life and hobbies, theres months I go without even thinking about love but when I get a crush I give it my best and still…nothing. I have tried all tactics and it's so ridiculous I'm losing my mind over this. How do some girls manage to just pick from the litter and be liked back? It seems to me that most girls just go with whatever guy shows interest to them and that isn't completely an asshole, but I'd like to have a more dominate role in this.
I just need help with managing to make the guy I like like me back because I'm too stupid for this shit. I'm probably not the first logical thinker to say this but, love is complicated!!!!
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