My little sister is married then there’s me who repels men.

My [25f] little sister [22f] is married. She got married when she was 19. I’ve had a few boyfriends (two my junior/senior year of high school and one last year), but besides that most of my interactions with men have been hookups.

While I don’t want to be married (I don’t feel like I’d survive a marriage) I see my little sister being happy with her husband and I feel so insecure and so lonely. I do want a relationship. I want one where I actually feel fulfilled (unlike my last). I want to feel wanted and have someone to share special moments with, but all of the men that I come across are only interested in me for a quick hookup. None of them want to get to know me or even continue talking to me after they’ve gotten (or haven’t gotten) what they wanted. It makes me question if this all I’m meant for.

Even men that I have some kind of connection with (like men that I was friends with that transitioned into something more) ultimately decide that they don’t want me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me or what I’m doing wrong that I attract guys like this, but I’m 25 years old. I’m tired of weekend hookups. I’m want something more. I want to be treated like I’m more than that.