23[M]. Not so attractive though I would rate myself 5/6 (on a lucky day).
– Active but not muscular or skinny. Kind of like dad bod.
My parent's relationship was messed up and I grew up in the middle of that. For most of my high school, I was fat and that sort of shifted me to being nerdy and into my own cave. That's why I never bothered to try dating.
Though a few years after I left school and joined uni, I got a lot leaner. Last year I had a small relationship [FWB] in a different country. The girl was out of my league for sure. But since I never had a proper relationship before, I just kept committing to this unwanted [FWB] relationship. Felt a little lost when we broke up (or stopped snap chatting so be precise).
Fast forward now, had first ONS last month. A girl I matched on OKC, came over to my place, we chatted over some wine, and that lead to this regrettable ONS. I say regrettably because the sex was not the issue though mentally, I was not prepared for what comes after all this.
So in short, never been into LDR or anything and I often wonder that I have messed up pretty badly.
No offence but I feel so depressed when I see all the girls who are 3-4s while swiping. And If I see any 5 or 6 or 7, I know it's not going to work. It is not that I am shaming people being ugly when I find myself in the same situation. It's because I feel no sexual attraction when a girl is 3 or 4. I know probably that it is the same case with girls who are 6 or 7 and they would never want to look at an average guy. So there is no way to jump higher on the league, and you are going to die like the way you were born?
I feel like I am never going to get into a LDR with a girl I like since I am already 23.
I feel mentally exhausted, especially when I am living all by myself with no close friends to talk to.
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