Right before the lockdown due to Covid 19, I lost my virginity to someone. And it looks like we’ll never get to meet again. And it’s troubling me.

I always thought the first time I do this would be more meaningful than having just a casual one time thing. Although we had not meant it for it to be a one time fling, looks like it was one. We met a few weeks before the lockdown, had a great time, and that was my first time with someone. Now due to certain reasons we both are in different parts of the country during the lockdown and will be away even after the lockdown. We are still in touch but the person involved is not really a kind of person who is looking for anything meaningful but would rather keep things casual. We both have different ideas so it makes sense for me to just let go and not waste each other’s time. But I am kind of having a hard time digesting this and taking that step. Any advice or casual conversation to help me let go of my pre-notions and accept things would be really helpful. Thanks and cheers.