Think I’m being abused how do I get out

(22M) talked to my coworker (26F) for a while and eventually started going out it’s been 5 months now but I’ve been noticing some things like how she will get mad at dumb things and drag them out for days and just always noticed she’s not as physical with me as I am with her just like touching or playing around. Was only about 2 months in and I went for first kiss but she kinda moved out of the way and then when I was dropping her off she knew I was gonna go for it again and laughed saying how it’s cute I’m so nervous and that was that, crushed my self esteem and confidence tbh well never really got a chance After that because the whole lockdown happened and we haven’t gone out. I can only usually visit her for lunches and that’s the most we’ve done but she’ll do stuff like always be on her phone and if I ask something or say something she’ll ignore it because she’s messaging her friends and it’s not like she’ll reply after it’ll be like she’ll just not acknowledge me until she says something else. We’ve had a few weird fights where it’s just kinda her mad at me instead of an actual fight, she’s fought for days over stuff like me not being able to help her that much with her final because I had a really bad fever, or me bringing up that her randomly making jokes or referencing her sexual past would make me uncomfortable, another one was me not remembering a joke she made back in December, she actually broke up with me for those last 2 but I got back because of how much I liked her now yesterday she kept trying to tell me something at work but I couldn’t understand because of the mask and she repeated 3 times and I still couldn’t understand so she got obviously frustrated but like overreacting for sure she hadn’t talked to me for a day now and ignores me at work I finally woke up and started seeing the signs and the difference between how I treat her and she treats me I feel like she gives me enough affection to keep me from leaving but now that I see things better I want to call it off or think she might the thing is if she doesn’t and we go back to normal I don’t think I can just end it I like her too much she’s been my first real gf.