Guuuur. I’ve posted on here many of times.
I (F27) have been ‘seeing’ an older man (40) for about 6 months now. Soo in the beginning, I felt a connection that was unreal. The non-disconnected eye contact that we held was powerful, the passion in the sex was euphoric, the 6hours of sleep that he held me the entire time was overwhelmingly comforting. I felt in love but never said that out loud of admitted it to myself. This turned into 90+ straight days of talking all day/ everyday(the all day convos died out but 6 months later, we prob missed a TOTAL of 5-8 days no contact) ,sleepovers 3nights a week. The fact that he was protective over me was so sexy. I liked that he didn’t ‘want’ or made comments like ‘you’re really wearing those pants to the store’(just some black leggings or similar) I loved every second of feeling that he didn’t want other ppl looking. This turned into him constantly accusing or putting me at question about not being honest about my whereabouts(this I loved bc I knew that he obviously cared about what I was doing), I have been honest with him about anything he’s wanted to know, like how I was pressured to give him the name of the last person I slept with, prior to him in my life, and constantly bringing up the name, it was a one night thing and didn’t hold any further contact. or the time a rock hit my windshield & it sounded like someone smacking my leg…? This turned into him ripping a pair of my black pants that had a pea sized hole in the crotch. The conversation became dull, that look that he first gave me has than turned upside down, literally. The passion during sex was gone. But he would still make me feel that feeling, only on his time.
A couple sundays ago, we were going to hang out, like we always do on Sunday nights, but he was at a family party & since he was drinking(as usual) he asked if I felt like picking him up. Little while later he says, hey if you want to come back and have a drink that’s cool. I’m excited bc he invited me to meet his family.. all went well, his whole family was very familiar with my name, they even knew my eye color, they teased him about the first day he saw me & tossed his cousins clam so they could go back up to my job & get my number. his sister had some drunk word vomit & told me that he likes me he just doesn’t do well with pressure. That was Sunday.. Thursday rolls around & we see each other, he’s playing the game of no kisses no cuddles, whatever that was that & I left in the AM. LAST NIGHT, he texts me before I was omw around 830pm saying no cuddles. I was pissed. & replies “but you Take me around your family… gyfoh” & I didn’t look at my phone until about 11pm. He blew me up,sorta. I FIGURED IT OUT…. the first night we slept together, I was ovulating(I didn’t know this at the time bc who really pays attention to that). We had sex multiple times after. So about 3 weeks in, I was nervous that he finished inside of me being that I felt this unfamiliar ‘gush’ feeling. So I took a plan b. I than was due for my period which was earlier spotting than expected for like 2-3days- than no blood. A couple days later, I started clotting, ALOT. I went to the dr & she told me seemed like implantation bleeding & what looked like white fetal tissue in the clot(she only saw a picture & I don’t feel it was right of her to say this). Pregnancy test was negative. I told him about this incident, as I think anyone would. It took me WEEKS to figure out why he was acting so odd about it- he thinks it’s impossible for that to have anything to do with him- I didn’t sleep w anyone for two months & two full periods before him- so that’s not possible. Than I find that I am defending myself on something that I don’t even know is 100% bc there was nothing saying the clot was a pregnancy. But I know for sure that I wasn’t w anyone else & I would never involve someone in a situation like that if I was unsure of who it could be. HE HAS A RESENTMENT FOR ME OVER SOMETHING THAT DIDNT HAPPEN. EVERYTHING CHANGED AFTER THIS & he would say ‘payback baby- you’ll see’ I never understood. Did he make me love him just for payback of something that isn’t even true. Does he hate me for his own assumptions? I’m weak for him. He sucks me in than pushes back even harder- like how he said, well I wasn’t going to be rude if your picking me up & not invite you in… making me look fuxkin stupid.
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