What would you do?

The one that got away?

I was totally in love with a guy in high school, but he just didn’t know until I sent him an anonymous Valentine’s Day gram and someone told him it was me(meant to be funny, he literally had no idea I existed) nothing happened just embarrassment

I got cuter senior year but he had already graduated and I dated someone else,so did he. Two years after graduation he messaged me and asked me out. To me he was literally my dream guy, the only guy to make me have butterflies, who had the exact look and personality I always considered to be perfectly my type.

We dated on and off after that for a few years, just dates and hanging out, never sex, the timing was never right to be together. I had different boyfriends in the off times. I always joked that we always come back to eachother.

He finally decided he wanted to pursue an actual relationship after he got over a terrible illness I had been helping him through, but I asked for some time bc it just didn’t feel like the right time for me (I wanted to get my life together before beginning a new relationship). So he began a new relationship with some other girl literally immediately after that, and 8 months later I started a relationship with my current boyfriend.

It’s two years later and we both have remained in these relationships. I had tried to get over us because I figured he had but get this: During this time, the first year apart he was starting a new business and since we live in the same area he had gone to my old job to ask my ex boss if she would need any of his services. My mom heard about this because she is friends with my ex boss. AND she told me that this guy told my ex boss that I was the love of his life and he fucked it up. Are you kidding me, so I was in shock, obviously in a relationship but what would I do about it anyway, it’s not like he’s broken up with his girlfriend dispite his revelation(which seems kinda fucked right?,to say that while in a relationship).

Now I am with my boyfriend of nearly two years and he loves me,despite some of his anger issues, he’s sweet and treats me very well. My (kind of) ex just doesn’t leave my head and it doesn’t help that he watches all my stories and texts me happy birthday every year for my birthday. It makes me think what if and it makes me worry that I will make the wrong decision, I’m 24 and my boyfriend keeps talking about marriage. What do you think, I need an outsiders perspective.