Why do girls despise me so much?

I’m a 20 yr old male & she is a 19 yr old female. This girl that I met 4 years ago moved & now she said she’s single. We’ve always liked each other. We met in a hospital in late 2016. However, she had to move due to family reasons. She used to live 25 minutes away from me when we first met. But she was taken back then. Now it’s 100 miles from my place to her town. She lives in a rough neighborhood so I’m a little nervous about going there. She said she wanted to spend time together. I was willing to do whatever it takes to make this work. I’ve waited 4 years for this opportunity. No other girl has ever liked me back. This was a once in a lifetime opportunity for me & I wanted to make it work. I prayed that God will have us reunited with each other again soon one day. I was also looking for a job opportunity & looking into acquiring a license so that way it would speed up the process. I was hoping that this would prove to her that I was responsible & making a legitimate effort towards our potential relationship.

We live in Illinois(United States) & the state is still under lockdown, meaning that we can’t meet up still. It keeps getting pushed back more & more. She was upset on the day after Memorial Day about this because we’ve been planning on meeting up since March(I’ve been upset too). She didn’t reply to my texts I left her on Tuesday evening when I told her that we’re still not allowed to hang out. I was scared that our relationship was going to be ruined because of a stupid disease & the travel restrictions our state has. I’ve always wanted to have a relationship with this girl & I knew I’d never have this chance again in my lifetime. I waited until 2 days afterwards to give her time. I really wanted to make this happen for both of us. She texted me saying that I don’t know what it’s like to live in the hood, that she’s grown up, & that she’s into a different type now. I told her that I’m sorry that I wasn’t good enough for her & she blocked me on everything. I’m so upset. It was either her or nobody & if she doesn’t want me, then I’m going to make sure nobody will want me.