I feel kinda pathetic typing this out because it probably says more about my feelings than his, but nonetheless this is still on my mind and it drives me crazy some days. So almost a year and a half ago I really fell for this guy, and he fell for me. So he said. I was going thru a lot after losing a friend a year prior, he said was there for me but it ultimately ended kinda sour. He left me the day of my grandmothers funeral. He wanted to remain in contact as a friend but, I simply told him I couldn’t do that. I think that made him upset because his gf from highschool told me things he was saying, and he was posting a lot at the club with girls and stuff. It was Kinda like he wanted me there just in case. A backup. And was upset I didn’t let him. After I seized contact he snapped me “streaks” for a week with no response, followed the art Instagram I made, subscribed to my YouTube channel etc. But I was eventually over the situation on my own terms. Fast forward to 6 or so months later in the summer he’s messaging me about my art. We ended up running into each other in public and I thought perhaps he wanted to try again. I had recently just got out of another very brief relationship. Some feelings came back. But within that week I just knew he was with someone new. I’m not gonna explain how, I just knew. I removed him on my Snapchat, unfollowed him, the whole bit. I wasn’t ANGRY I just didn’t wanna think about it or be reminded. Well, what do you know the next day her ass is on his snap story (via my friend) This relationship evolves into a committed one over the next weeks. You know, it did kinda hurt at the beginning since he struck up conversation with me once again at the same time he was starting to date her. It bothered me he got my attention again just to shove a new girl in my face. And that he once told me he wanted to be with me, but just couldn’t, and it seemed so easy for him to be with her. And within a week he was posting her. We “talked” for 2.5 months..But I’ve accepted things. I don’t want him anyway. Months later to now, they are still together as far as I know. I have no ill will for her or him. I truly hope they are happy. I never blocked him on snap insta etc, I simply removed/unfollowed him. It wasn’t up until recently he finally unfollowed me back, kinda outta nowhere. But I didn’t think much of it. But since then the stories I post publicly on Snapchat, he always sees. But the thing is, I’m not FRIENDS with him on there, so he pops up under “other snap chatters”. I don’t come up in the list of stories in his friends list, I must just come up on his discover page. idk why because I’ve never seen him on there. And all the time I had him removed before, he didnt view them. Why now? Every single time? Even when I post multiple it’s not like he sees the first then swipes, he taps thru it lol. I post a lot as an artist. But also just for shits.
It’s a weird situation because, it’s not like I post for him to see. But when he does see, I kinda smile. Just cus I know he thought about me, when I spent so long thinking of him with the idea I was far from his mind. But it bothers the crap outta me cus it’s like I can’t escape this kid. And now whatever tf “iT mEaNs” is irrelevant because I’m just thinking about him again. It could mean simply nothing, and you reading this are shaking your head like ‘poor girl, whatever helps you sleep at night’ but idk. I just need to be checked I guess. Or someone confirm to me that he…still cares?? Even though I shouldn’t. Ugh the more I get into this the more I realize how stupid I sound, anyways. If you are guy let me know wtf is going thru his head. Does this say something about him, or me? LOL Thanks.
TL;DR: This guy I fell for over a year ago and has a new girlfriend, recently started to view all my snap stories even though I removed him as a friend. He unfollowed my Instagram before this started happening. Before that he followed my art account til I removed him, and subscribed to my channel. I have made it clear I’m not on chill terms with him, we’re not friends, and now that he’s almost a year into this new relationship he’s viewing my stuff more than ever. I could be overthinking and this says more about me than him. I’m really here to just get it off my mind and get some unbiased input. Also I’m kind of a noob when it comes to reddit, lmk if theres a better subreddit I should be posting this in!
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