Will I ever have any hope of not being single? I’m a 32 year old transwoman! Am I unlovable?

I'm transgender. I've never had a serious relationship and I'm 32. I hate being single.

Some times I fear that I waited too long to transition from male to female, that waiting has screwed up my life. Other times I fear I'm unlovable. I look in the mirror and feel that I'm practically a gargoyle. These sorts of thoughts on a rare occasion can make me suicidal.

I was raised by a very unsupportive family that used Christianity to demonize any feminine behaviors they saw in me, that emotional abuse caused me to develop an anxiety disorder known as Anxious Avoidant Personality Disorder and the depression from my gender dysphoria coupled with that Anxiety disorder have greatly hampered my ability to interact with new people let alone date. I am seeing a therapist trained in LGBT issues and she has helped me make some minor progress over the last year.

I want to put myself out there, but my anxiety makes me so afraid of rejection, and what if some one fell for who I am now and then fell out of love with who I might become as I transition? Should I wait to date till after I transition, would I have any hope of finding some one?