I apologize if I alarmed everyone on here last night with a post about ending my life. So many people reached out to me. I didn’t intend for that to happen or to be an alarmist, or doing it just for attention. I posted it and stepped away from my computer thinking in the nighttime, no one would see it or care, but it was humbling to see so many words that said many different things, but also comforted.

I felt extremely low after a very hard day after some , and it took me awhile to go to bed with all those thoughts, but in the end, I just went to bed and decided to see how I felt when I woke up, and here I am.I’m having a hard time putting into words why I feel the way I do. I know that it has something to do with a general bleakness to our world right now coupled with the fact that I’ve had a rough go with encounters lately on dating apps.

Something else that I feel a little embarrassed about is that I’m a very sexual guy, but also inexperienced, and I’ve found myself getting envious of other couples or men’s sex lives I see posting in these dating subs, sex subs, and most especially the Gone Wild subreddits. I don’t know these people personally who post there, but in discussing the subject with someone else, it really feels like social media has stepped up to a new level where we not only have to bare seeing beautiful “happy” couples, young families, and single people I know boasting about that dating/relationship success, but now it’s like we have to deal with them just flat out posting every detail about their sex lives or even flat out porn of themselves. It’s a lot. I feel really overwhelmed and like it’s crushing down on me.