So I’ve been asking myself these questions for years. I think it may link back to my highschool sweetheart who dragged me along for 6 years post relationship with head games and mental abuse. It got to the point I couldn’t see myself with anyone but her and eventually lead to a shotgun under my chin. I’m better now. But I dont think I’ve truly loved someone since. That’s not to say I cant love platonically. I love my family. I love my friends. But romantically I dont think I’ve loved since then. I cant tell you if I loved my ex wife at all. I took her virginity so I think that was more of a guilt thing. My ex after my marriage I dont think I loved her either. My therapist thinks I’ve closed off my heart and refuse to let anyone in. My refusal to talk about what’s bothering me or things that upset me are all linked to my romantic downfalls since. What am I doing wrong? How do i open up to someone I’m interested in?