It’s hard to put into words what I’m looking for.

Basically, I do want to date, but I don't want to date to "settle" or for "marriage". At least not anytime soon. I know I've been vehemently against marriage and having kids. The truth is I really don't know whether or not I want those things. I do know that I don't want those things now or anytime soon. But I'm open to the possibility that my mind could change like 10 years from. But for now, marriage/settling down is a huge no-no for me. I sure as hell don't want to be that "settle-down" guy or the "end-goal". I have too much self-respect to allow myself such a compromise. I am also not necessarily looking for hook-ups, but I'm not entirely closed off to the idea of that either, to be honest. I think hook-ups are kind of unfairly demonized. Just another example of outdated Judeo-Christian values that still linger on. Anyway, I do want to date people, but I kind of want to be in a relationship where things are open-ended. Where we don't know where it's headed. And if it doesn't work out it doesn't work out. If it does it does. But the main point is that we do not have marriage/kids in mind. To be honest it's kind of hard to describe what I'm looking for. I don't really know. But it's kind of a fun relationship, if that makes sense, where there's that spark that we get from each other. It's romantic without being just a "date for marriage" type of arrangement. Ugh, I wish I could make more sense. But that's the best way I could describe it. Maybe I don't even know what I want. But I really don't want to marry the first girl I date.